Forgive & Forget?

You know what they say about love... if you love someone enough, you can forgive and forget whatever wrongs or faults.

Well, it didn't really work, at least for me... Maybe I don't love him enough to be able to forget... The forgive part sort of works.. but trust me, the "forget" part takes alot more than pure love to get through.

So what's there to forgive and forget about?

Nothing much, he cheated on me and tried to lie his way through. I just can't get it, even though we are supposed to be back to the "normal" mode, I still don't get it...

Why is it that men can't stay devoted to one woman? Maybe I am the only cranky one who still believes in all the lyrics of songs that sings so much about love and devotion. Frankly, I still do believe that nothing changes love, its the people that's changing, we are changing.

People are manipulating the meaning of love to get what they want. In fact, we hear of people who manipulate love for economic gains. Sad, yes... but it isn't a new game, people long before our time are already playing this game.

Everytime I see an old couple walking into the sunset, hand in hand, I can't help but wonder how they manage to stick together for so long... I wondered if the elderly gentleman ever cheated on his wife... and if he did, what made her forgive him and does she still remember it...

I don't know if I am just stupid or just too dumb... can you still trust the man who lied to you, broke your heart and almost tried to sneak away with it? Leaving you alone to heal your wounds, deal with your heart and convince yourself that it really wasn't meant to be?

For me, I think I have successfully managed with the forgive part... the forget part, its a lot harder... at times, I will look at him and suddenly remember what he did... and the worst part, knowing he might still be thinking of the other girl...

Trust me... this is definitely one hell of an experience... I did ask why is it that love brings so much pain? And I ask Lord that if love is so painful and so angry, I really don't want to love again... I'd rather live a much less meaningless life without love, perhaps I might be happier that way... Knowing that my heart will never be hurt by anyone or anything....

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

I may be all cold on the outside... but I am a realy softie and a die-hard romantic on the inside...